September 7, 2017

Beginning the novena of Our Lady of Sorrows today, ending on Clark’s 2nd birthday. Pray with me for healing and life in heaven for all!
“God must consider suffering to be a great good since He gave so much suffering to His Son, Whom He loved so much. And since, after His Son, God loved the Holy Virgin more than any other creature, He also wanted to give her suffering as the richest of all presents. In the solemnity of this feast, we principally remember Mary on Calvary where she suffered the supreme sorrow of all sorrows that filled her life… To understand the extent and suffering of Our Lady, one must know the extent of her love for Jesus. Her love as Mother of God only augmented her suffering. In fact, nature and grace came together to produce profound impressions on the heart of Mary. Nothing is stronger and more pressing than the love that nature gives a mother for her son or that grace gives for God. These considerations help us understand the role of suffering in our lives. We see we are not alone in our suffering.”
Loss, trials, silence and so many other sufferings prove normal in this vale of tears, perhaps even a communication of His love. Therefore we ask that the sufferings pass but when they persist, we must bless God and Our Lady, still – our constant companions.
Blessed & Sorrowful




My Cup Runneth Over

“…Indeed, goodness and mercy will pursue me

all the days of my life;

I will dwell in the house of the LORD

for endless days.”
“My cup runneth over” when I dwell on how much He loves us in His sacrifice, but when I forget Him it overflows with anxiety, loneliness and despair. Today Psalm 23 reminded me that we are never meant to do it without Him. Appreciating that even the difficulties can mean His pursuit, can draw us closer to His love and mercy and eternal home. He wants our hearts! And with Him we need not fear anything. #hopeinheaven #donotbeafraid #lifeloveloss


Saint Therese of Lisieux Quote…

Reminds me of all the beautiful souls who’ve passed as children


“The good God does not need years to accomplish His work of love in a soul; one ray from His Heart can, in an instant, make His flower bloom for eternity…”

-Saint Therese of Lisieux

Jesus Falls the Third Time

So much of the life of Christ should shock us. The fact that God would take on our humanity and suffer everything for the sake of making heaven available to us once again is shocking enough.

In addition he took on our frailty, our weakness, our vulnerability… He fell THREE times on his way up Calvary. The SON OF GOD fell, when obviously he had every power to keep it all from happening. Why would Jesus go through this?

I’ve always been taught that it was out of love for us and the more I stumble through life the more I realize that he did so so that we would have a guide for our own walk up Calvary… Because we all have crosses to carry, don’t we? Like the soldiers to Christ, we all suffer persecutions, judgement of others, our own self-deprecation even? We meet people along the way, some help us, some weep with us, some just stand by and don’t know what to do. But we all know deep down that we must walk this walk. And what’s at the end? Well, death, and hopefully after that, heaven. But death is the hurdle that we must all face.

Jesus so lovingly shows us that in no way is this walk easy. Sometimes we get bursts of strength, sometimes we get a helping hand, sometimes we fall… And if Christ himself fell three times then you can bet I’m going to fall innumerable times. But he showed us with such strength, that could only be inspired by love for others, that we must get up and keep going.

I’ve already fallen many times in my short years, and the last couple of years I’ve struggled with the temptation to just stop trying altogether. These feelings of tiredness or hopelessness is all that’s left when I think of how hard life is. It’s when I look beyond myself at Christ and the beautiful people in my life and the ugliness too that I realize how badly we all need each other. I’m inspired to look at Jesus and fight to the death like he did. I’m inspired to be a Simon to someone else in need. I’m inspired to be the good thief on the cross… Looking at God with humility and gratefulness and trusting that we will beat the cross and be together in paradise when the time comes.

Don’t lose heart if you feel like you’ve fallen. We all do, even Christ. With his help we can get back up and win this race with passion and a love that beats death. #lent #lentspiration #holythursday #lifeloveloss

Meet Our “Stormy” Rainbow Baby!

On January 17th, 2017 Clark’s younger brother was born! He is our “Stormy” Rainbow Baby because he had to spend two weeks in the NICU before being allowed to come home and meet his oldest brother, Gabe – a joyful coming home to say the least!

Lazarus James, “Laz” for short, has captured our hearts just like his brothers before him! His name, the name of Jesus’ best friend, means “God is my help.” Jesus wept at Lazarus’ tomb (John 11) and it is said that his tears were for all of humanity. Then he prayed to the Father and called Lazarus out, ALIVE. What a testimony to the resurrection and life we have in Christ and a mirrored reminder of God’s loving plan for our sons, and all of His children.

As difficult as it was to stand by and watch our Laz struggle in his early weeks of life, we could feel his big brother Clark with us in that tiny NICU room as he reminded us of what a gift it all is – even each breath. Today, we are loving life at home with two darling boys while continuing to love on our sweet one in heaven.

Needless to say, we are thankful beyond all measure and each moment with our Rainbow Baby has been such a gift. Thank you, thank you for all of the prayers from our friends near and far!!

Love, this Rainbow Mama 

“Jesus works miracles for His dearest friends only after He has tested their faith. He let Lazarus die, even though Martha and Mary sent word that he was sick. But after the trial, what rewards! Lazarus rises from the dead.”

– St Therese of Lisieux

Sirach 2:1-11

“My son, when you come to serve the LORD,
stand in justice and fear,
prepare yourself for trials.
Be sincere of heart and steadfast,
incline your ear and receive the word of understanding,
undisturbed in time of adversity.
Wait on God, with patience, cling to him, forsake him not;
thus will you be wise in all your ways.
Accept whatever befalls you,
when sorrowful, be steadfast,
and in crushing misfortune be patient;
For in fire gold and silver are tested,
and worthy people in the crucible of humiliation.
Trust God and God will help you;
trust in him, and he will direct your way;
keep his fear and grow old therein.

You who fear the LORD, wait for his mercy,
turn not away lest you fall.
You who fear the LORD, trust him,
and your reward will not be lost.
You who fear the LORD, hope for good things,
for lasting joy and mercy.
You who fear the LORD, love him,
and your hearts will be enlightened.
Study the generations long past and understand;
has anyone hoped in the LORD and been disappointed?
Has anyone persevered in his commandments and been forsaken?
has anyone called upon him and been rebuffed?
Compassionate and merciful is the LORD;
he forgives sins, he saves in time of trouble
and he is a protector to all who seek him in truth.”

Sirach 2:1-11